So, I've been doing this fucked up thing lately. My normal schedule is to get up a few hours early, so that I can play Diablo III before I have to go to work. This settles me, and prepares me for my work day. I feel a great rage if I oversleep and don't get to play before work. Part of getting up early is also having the time to get enough coffee and cigarettes in me, so I'm sure this plays a part, too.
But things have become so stressful at work that sometimes I say "Fuck it" and decide I'm not going to sleep that night. (Tonight.) I take extra of my stimulant (which I am only still prescribed because I haven't told my psychiatrist that I no longer have a night job--I'm kind of addicted to it), and I stay up, and yep, I play Diablo. For like 10 hours straight. Because lately it's taken that amount of playing to offset the stress for the next day. Which, of course, ends up biting me in the ass after I've been awake for, oh, let's say, 24 hours. And realizing, shit, I have 8 hours to go. Then I crash as soon as I get home, and sleep for 12 hours. Sometimes I don't even get my charting done for the day (because the changes in our charting are part of what's so stressful), so then I end up having to get up early the next day to do my charting, anyway. It becomes this vicious cycle.
But sometimes I just have to do it.
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